Dear family, welcome. Welcome to a new month, and the start of the second half of this year.
Where do I begin? I’m not sure I have the right words to describe what this year has been so far. My, it’s been a lot and then some. Every month has brought challenges with it, with every month being heavier than the last. I mean this personally since I know that our lives pan out differently, and that I’m only able to speak from personal experience.
I remember the last blog post I put up.
Thursday, 04 June 2020. Though it had been a heavy couple of days with regards to the injustices making the rounds on social media in the form of pictures and videos, as well as the need for each of us to play our part. I was looking forward to the 5th of June. I was looking forward to writing June’s #FirstFriday post, because the first Friday of each month always reminds me of the potential that month holds. It serves as a reminder that there is still hope. That there is still room for progress, no matter how the previous month turned out. The first friday of every month reminds me of the opportunities that lie ahead, and encourage me to take advantage of that. And I try to share that hope with you.
However, on the 5th of June the sun only rose for a few hours of my day. And then, it got bleak. Grey, as the news of my friend’s passing changed everything. Every other day after that was a mix of emotions I couldn’t seem to have control over. A mix of wrestling with faith, and questions. Denial, and partial acceptance. Digging deep for strength I wasn’t sure I had.
If I’m being honest, it forced me to really face a number of other things I was suppressing. I had to come face to face with pain. To sit with it. Feel it. All of it. And surrender it over to Christ. It’s simple to say, but not as easy to do.
However, it can be done. The process takes time, has no manual to follow, and requires that you be fully present, and fully willing to heal. Healing isn’t pretty, nor is it linear. But it is necessary.
It’s a blessing to feel. Even the ugly.– Melissa Bambie
28 Days later…
Today, almost a month later, the narrative is a little different. The lesson learnt? Pain is a part of life, but not the end of it. It provides room for growth, though intense in the way it creates this space. I look at the life my friend lived and though this is sort of sad to say, there are so many lessons learnt from the way he lived his life that were made more apparent by his passing. By the void he left.
Now, I look at July and the rest of this year with a different perspective. All that has happened in the last 6 months has reiterated the need to do life with Jesus DAILY. Some days may be harder than others because there is so much going on both around us and within us, but remember that in Christ we have peace. This peace is however only accessible when we focus on Him. Otherwise, its easy to get overwhelmed by everything else. Everything we see, hear and experience.
Peace isn’t the absence of the waves crashing against your life boat but, rather, it is ability to be at ease even when this happens. Think about how Jesus peacefully slept in a boat, in the middle of a storm, whilst His disciples on the other hand were panicking out of fear. Christ was at peace because of what He knew deep within. That the waves were no match for the authority He holds, and His presence in that boat meant life was a given. No matter how the seas raged, there is nothing they’d do to snuff out His life and, by association, His disciples’.
As a Christan, Christ is in your life-boat. Life itself dwells in your life-boat. With Him comes peace. I say that to say, no matter what the rest of this year holds and/or brings with it, remember who you walk with. Be reminded of and encouraged by His presence and all that it brings with it.
You are not alone.
It’s not about what you “feel”. Instead, it’s about what He said. That He’ll NEVER leave nor forsake you. No ifs, ands or buts. No exceptions. He’s gone before you, but will still walk this journey with you.
As for me, I’m smiling again… And as you can see, I’m writing again. Still healing, yes. But, I’m looking forward to this new month and the rest of this year. I pray the Lord strengthen me daily, in order to be able to pour out weekly on this platform.
Beyond that, I pray for you. I have no idea what you’re going through, but I pray joy and peace over your life. May the strength of the Lord be your portion, always. May you know divine love like never before in this remaining half of 2020.
I pray His heart speaks to yours.
Welcome to July family!
Grace & Peace to you & yours
– Xo, Jo 🌺